Don’t Miss Out!


Hi friends! I just wanted to drop a little note to say today is the last day to get the digital version of my new book Holy Doubt: Finding Hope When Faith is a Struggle for only $0.99. The price goes up tomorrow! If you or someone you know is struggling with doubt and tough questions about God, Holy Doubt a must-read! Click here to check it out!

Big News!


I have BIG news people!

Big things are happening over here and I feel like shouting it from the rooftop (or from the blog—the blog is easier because I really don’t like heights).

Yesterday I submitted my manuscript for Holy Doubt to my editor (Hallelujah!), and I wanted you all to be among the first to know. Mind you, it’s just the first round of edits so it’s still a work in progress. But progress is being made! I’m one step closer to a dream fulfilled–my first book published.

Many of you have been with me since I first started writing pieces of this story over five years ago, which is based on my experiences with doubt while we were missionaries in India. And I feel like you all should be as much a part of celebrating with me as anyone. Your words, telling me what sharing my story has meant to you, and those of you who shared your story with me, have been the inspiration to keep me going when it would have been easier to quit (which was often).

The book addresses some tough questions that many of us face like: Is God good? Can he be trusted? and, Does God cause bad things to happen to us? If you, or someone you know, are wrestling with these questions I believe Holy Doubt will be a must read.

I’ve decided to self-publish. Which I never wanted to do, even though there are considerable advantages including a quicker publishing date (tentatively May 9th!) and more creative control. But I wanted the validation of a publisher approving me and my words. I wanted them to say that my message was worthwhile. But mostly, the idea of self-publishing terrified and overwhelmed me with everything I need to know and all the things I don’t know–including the things I don’t know that I don’t know. Yikes!

That’s where you come in my friends.

I want to invite anyone who’s interested in spreading the word about the book in the weeks leading up to its release on May 9th to be a part of the launch team. If you’d like to find out more details about being part of the launch team and/or have the inside scoop about the book launch (including special sneak-peeks) please email me at I will send out an email in the weeks ahead with more details for those who are interested.

Thanks for being part of my story! (and please keep me in your prayers over the next few months)

I Miss Him!


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After the women’s retreat we hung around Bangkok for a few more days. One of those days being a Sunday, we wound up at an international church that was being pastored by the former president of the Bible college of which my husband was a graduate.

I came to the service grumpy, resentful, and very much against my will.  But when the worship music began something inside of me broke.  I could feel God’s presence around me in a way that I hadn’t since the whole ordeal began.  Charles Templeton, a writer and commentator who came face to face with his doubts about the character of God and ultimately rejected his faith, was interviewed by Lee Strobel for his book The Case for Faith.  When Templeton, a self-proclaimed atheist, was asked about Jesus he broke down weeping and confessed, “I miss him.”

In that moment I could relate to Templeton’s grief.  I missed Jesus too.  Standing in the presence of God that day, I realized that even though I was angry, hurt, and confused–I missed Jesus desperately!  I knew I couldn’t keep going without him.  However, I wasn’t willing to stop asking the questions about suffering and injustice that had been screaming through my brain (nor do I think I was supposed to), but I was finally willing to start listening to the answers that God was trying to speak to me through circumstances, people, books, and the Bible (really, just about everything in my life).  He was orchestrating every experience, meeting, and word to reveal the answers that I was seeking as well as his desire for me to know him better.  God had been making huge strides towards me (looking back I can see that plainly), but that day was the first small step I made towards him, and the first step in a journey that was going to be difficult, but beyond compare…