FREE Resources


Hi Friends!

I just wanted to take a quick minute to send a great big “Thank You!” to everyone who helped with the launch of my new book Holy Doubt, and to tell you about some valuable FREE resources to go along with the book!

Holy Doubt: Finding Hope When Faith is a Struggle, debuted on Amazon May 9th (click here to buy it now), spending a few days as a bestseller in 3 categories–which exceeded my wildest dreams and expectations. God is indeed good!

If you haven’t had a chance to read it yet, I promise you won’t regret it. It’s a quick read and this is a snapshot of what people are saying about it on Amazon:

“You are captured in the very first chapter. Honestly, if you have ever struggled with faith, wondered where God was during your darkest times, or questioned the trustworthiness and goodness of God during difficult times, you need to read this book. So raw, transparent, and real, you will be encouraged by Erica’s story.”–Marissa
“Once I started reading, I just could not put the book down. The story that Erica weaves of her time in India is engaging and captivating. Most everyone has asked the question – “God, why would you allow me to go through….”, but we don’t always voice that question out loud for fear that we just don’t have enough faith. Erica bravely shares her innermost feelings during an emotionally raw time to show that it’s OK to question God and our faith in order to get to the place of full dependence on God.”–Angela
“I seriously could not put it down! She is such a captivating & inspiring writer! Be ready to be encouraged is all I have to say! Loved every part of it!!”–Samantha
I’m so incredibly grateful for all of the love and support from everyone who helped make the launch of the book such a success and I wanted to make several resources available for FREE on my website. On the Holy Doubt page of you can find bonus content to go along with the book including a free in-depth chapter-by-chapter study guide, a deleted chapter, and links to interviews (with more to be added soon–including videos!). It’s a great site chock-full of FREE resources to enhance your experience with the book. Share it with your friends and let me know what you think (and share any suggestions for future content)!
Thanks again for being on the journey with me!–Erica
If haven’t read it yet, no worries! You can get it on Amazon today

When God Says Wait


Spoiler Alert: My new book, Holy Doubt: Finding Hope When Faith is a Struggle is available now on Amazon. If you or someone you know is struggling with God, this book will be a huge help along the sometimes dark and painful path through doubt. The digital version is only $0.99 until May 11th (find out more and snag a copy here).

Many of you started following this blog almost three years ago when I first began writing about some of my experiences with doubt and what I experienced as a missionary in India. I shared personal stories about the way God was working in my heart as I tried to process what I saw, felt, and heard during our four years in missions, and many of you shared your stories with me as well. I counted it an extreme privilege that my story connected with you in some small way, and I started to wonder if maybe God could use my story in other ways too.

So I kept blogging and started writing Holy Doubt with the intention of helping people like me who were struggling with doubt and shattered faith.

But the book was terrible.

There was a lot of “then this happened, and then this…,” and the manuscript turned into one long list of events. Ugh! Essentially, it was a poorly written memoir instead of the helpful guide for the dark journey through doubt and questions that I hoped it would be. It was about as interesting and useful as reading my grocery list. Not. Helpful.

So I rewrote it.

After that second rewrite, I submitted it to a national contest and Holy Doubtt was among the top 10 considered for a publishing deal with Tyndale Momentum. That time I thought, “This is it! This story is finally going to make its way out into the world.” But as the date for them to choose a winner got closer and closer, I didn’t feel excited. Instead, I hoped they wouldn’t pick me! Feeling terrified and overwhelmed by the thought of sharing the story with the world and the many ways I would feel exposed and vulnerable, I wished I’d never submitted it to the contest. I finally felt more confident in the manuscript, but I wasn’t ready to be an author.

As it turns out, I wasn’t ready and neither was the book!

So I rewrote it again.

I didn’t realize it at the time, but that rejection was God’s way of saying “Wait!”

Somewhere in the middle of the third rewrite I realized God had replaced some of my pain with purpose, exchanged my mourning for joy, and hidden hope for me to find in the dark places. That’s when Holy Doubt finally became a story worth telling.

With each rewrite the meaning behind what I experienced sharpened and became clearer, until finally it became what I had hoped for all along—an easy-to-read guide for hurting people stumbling through the soul-crushing agony of doubt.

I don’t know what you’re facing right now. Maybe God is saying, “Wait!” and you just want to charge ahead, bulldozing every roadblock in your way. I know exactly how that feels.

But God has a beautiful story to tell with your life. It might not feel like it right now. But as someone who has sat where you are (and will likely be there again in the future), can I urge you to trust God’s timing? It made no sense to me back when I didn’t get that publishing deal, why God would ask me to wait, but years down the road, it makes perfect sense.

What is God wanting to rewrite in your life? Where is he wanting to replace sorrow with joy, despair for hope? While you contemplate your story, make sure to check out Holy Doubt on Amazon. I’m praying it will help you see the beauty in the story God is writing with your life.

Big News!


I have BIG news people!

Big things are happening over here and I feel like shouting it from the rooftop (or from the blog—the blog is easier because I really don’t like heights).

Yesterday I submitted my manuscript for Holy Doubt to my editor (Hallelujah!), and I wanted you all to be among the first to know. Mind you, it’s just the first round of edits so it’s still a work in progress. But progress is being made! I’m one step closer to a dream fulfilled–my first book published.

Many of you have been with me since I first started writing pieces of this story over five years ago, which is based on my experiences with doubt while we were missionaries in India. And I feel like you all should be as much a part of celebrating with me as anyone. Your words, telling me what sharing my story has meant to you, and those of you who shared your story with me, have been the inspiration to keep me going when it would have been easier to quit (which was often).

The book addresses some tough questions that many of us face like: Is God good? Can he be trusted? and, Does God cause bad things to happen to us? If you, or someone you know, are wrestling with these questions I believe Holy Doubt will be a must read.

I’ve decided to self-publish. Which I never wanted to do, even though there are considerable advantages including a quicker publishing date (tentatively May 9th!) and more creative control. But I wanted the validation of a publisher approving me and my words. I wanted them to say that my message was worthwhile. But mostly, the idea of self-publishing terrified and overwhelmed me with everything I need to know and all the things I don’t know–including the things I don’t know that I don’t know. Yikes!

That’s where you come in my friends.

I want to invite anyone who’s interested in spreading the word about the book in the weeks leading up to its release on May 9th to be a part of the launch team. If you’d like to find out more details about being part of the launch team and/or have the inside scoop about the book launch (including special sneak-peeks) please email me at I will send out an email in the weeks ahead with more details for those who are interested.

Thanks for being part of my story! (and please keep me in your prayers over the next few months)

God Doesn’t Hate You


Ever felt like God hates you?

Or thought that God has abandoned you?

I have.

I’m writing a book about that time in my life. It’s filled with some very personal stories of how I walked through that season, and my prayer is that it will be honest enough to help someone else who can relate to what I experienced and I want your help!

I want to make sure I’m writing a book that’s genuinely helpful and not just a collection of words on a page. This is an important topic and I feel like it doesn’t get talked about often enough and honestly enough.

If you’ve ever felt that way, like God has abandoned you or hates you, I would love to know what you would be looking for in a book on the subject that would make it irresistible to you?

What would make it a must-read for you?

What would you find most helpful?

What would be least helpful?

I’m also toying with several title/subtitle combinations. Feel free to weigh in on your favorite.

They are (in no particular order):

  1. GOD DOESN’T HATE YOU: And 5 Other Truths to Give You Hope When it Feels Like You’re Drowning in Doubt
    2. THE DIVINE DARK: The Skeptic’s Path to Reconnecting with God
    3. NOT ABANDONED: A Love Letter to the Skeptical Heart
    4. HOLY DOUBT: How to Reconnect With God When it Feels Like He Hates You

I would love to hear your opinion on these questions and titles (you can just comment by number for your favorite title) and I would love to hear your stories.

Please leave me a comment or email me. I can’t wait to hear from you!

P.S. Don’t forget to check out my new blog at: where you can download my free pdf: God Doesn’t Hate You: And 5 Other Truths to Give You Hope When You Feel Like You’re Drowning in Doubt (a very brief, condensed version of my book).